fuck them

i hate the current me. i do not like the situation that i am stuck in now. i know it is fucking wrong for me to behave in this way now but just let me be irrational for once. forgive me for being the bad person now. i am sick and tired of being part of the beautiful picture you paint for the others. it is the time for me to be rebellious. it is the time for you to understand the pain and agony i have been going through for all my life. i always tell myself that it will be fine after a few weeks but this time round, i dont think that is going to happen. it has already gone over the limit. if you are not going to learn how to respect us, the whole cycle will happen again in a few months' time. anyway, even if you have learnt your lesson now, it is too late. i will never believe in 'it is bever too late' again. i dont know when the whole thing will be over. i just have to hang on for the sake of someone i want to protect. dont ever break down now, karen!